The Council of the Holy Fire

Bathing in the Light
In the grass in the summer sun
Watching New Earth bloom around me
And a blink
I was in an ancient stone chamber
Eons old, circular stone
Cold to the touch, walking around
I was barefoot
No, naked
There was no difference between my skin and the air
And a deep pool, circular as well, set in the middle of the room
I was guided to walk in
And it wasn’t water
But a lake of liquid lapis lazuli
Cool and perfect and blue
The second I stepped into it
It flowed into me
Through me
The veins of pyrite in the lapis became my veins
The blue of the gods flowed through me
And swallowed me
I could feel my body being dissolved into the Light at the centre of the crystal
I was floating in the Light.
I was.
I.

 

 

Blank space of Oneness, all that I was dissolved. All that had ever made me, me. Everything that was personal. My body, my mind, all thoughts, all observation, all emotion. Everything blinked out of existence

 

Space. Peace. Light. One with All That Is.

And no memory of separation. No memory of anything.

Dissolved into crystal, laughing with joy at my presence

Another blink, a breath where I was being breathed and then “I” could see again

Deep under the lapis there was an archway full of white Source Light

Glowing so brightly that eventually the Light filled the entire pool

And I was guided to move, to swim towards it, as if I all of a sudden had a body again, though I wasn’t in form

And I stepped through the archway, the portal of Light
And I was in a form that looked like my body
But didn’t feel like it or sound like it
Like someone had made a very good copy of what my body was supposed to be
But wherever I was couldn’t hold the density of the form of a body, it was too filled with Light.

Everything was white. Everything was glowing. That all encompassing Light that was streaming out from the portal filled everything in the chamber I found myself in.

There were huge pillars and a vaulted ceiling. Everything was alabaster and marble, threaded through with gold, and every bit of gold was a shimmering Living Code, was Light Language, was its own blessing and activation and song of praise to the Divine.

Everything was singing, layering over each other, songs and tones and light and light and light, praising the Divine.

The room was huge and expansive and seemed to expand out into infinity. There was a dais in the centre of the room, upon which was a long table. Seated at the table were every main Master of the Egyptian Pantheon.

 

Isis. Osiris. Horus. Nut. Geb. Anubis. Nephtys. Ma’at. Hathor. Sekhmet. Bast. Ra…

 

I stared, and stared, and stared. They were all glowing. I knew all of them. All of them. Personally. Like these were my family more than any other family I can remember. This knowing of brothers and sisters and loves and friends. Home and Home and HOME.

I stared so long, Isis started laughing at me. She gestured down the table. In the centre. There was one seat empty.

I goggled at her. Who, ME? Even if I feel incredibly close with you, even if I feel like I’m home, surely I can’t sit there! It looks like a throne. And it’s glowing and backlit with Light from Source.

She spoke. “Please, sit”. I made my way very slowly around the table, all of them grinning at me, smiling at me, or looking fondly down at me. I felt very very small, and like I was being given a great honour, but I had no idea really what the honour was.

I got to the chair/throne/seat and it was entirely illuminated. So bright it kind of hurt to look at. I looked at her again, for confirmation, just to be sure. Like really, you want ME to sit there?

Sit, she said simply, again.

So I sat.

And sank into the Light.

I could feel it caressing me, illuminating me, loving me, loving all of me, and the second I went to sit, the second I sat….

I turned into Thoth.

I WAS Thoth.

I shapeshifted into him.

Hello, another aspect of my Higher Self!

Self-created God of Writing, the Holy Scribe of the Divine. The Magician.
The first healing modality I was ever drawn to was Alchemical Healing, which is in his lineage.

We just….sat together, and I felt more at home in a form than I have in millennia.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. THANK YOU.

All my being drawn to Egypt, and work with Anubis (he’s AMAZING for shadow work) and Bast (she was the first to take me into trance)and Isis(remembering upon remembering of being Her Priestess) make sense now. Like finding all my family again, a huge family reunion. I don’t even remember if we talked out loud. There was all sorts of telepathic communication, and just this amazing sense of coming Home. Of Being Home.

I, as Thoth, was not only filled with Light, I was completely LIGHT. There was nothing but Light, there was no part of me that had ever existed that was not Light.Pure open and free and expanded infinitely into the Divine, as the Divine.

I eventually came back into this body, though I don’t remember how, and the Light was still present, and is still present.

I asked where I was, and I was told, “The Council of the Holy Fire”.

When I received the name I could suddenly See, before the dais, in the centre of the room, a great flame, emerald coloured. This was the Emerald Flame of All Life. All Divinity given Form as Truth of Holy Being. Light and Light and Light.

The flame was hypnotizing, dancing, huge. I could hear Her laughing in joy as She was Seen. As she was praised and beheld in Glory.

I AM I AM I AM
I AM THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD
I AM THE LOVE OF THE HEAVENS
I AM THE TRUTH OF GOD
I AM I AM I AM DIVINE DIVINE DIVINE
ALL THAT I AM IS DIVINE
ALL THAT I AM IS HOLY
ALL THAT I AM IS PRECIOUS
ALL IS BEAUTIFUL INFINITE UNENDING GRACE YOU ARE ALL THAT I AM
YOU ARE ALL THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN
I AM I AM I AM
I AM ALL YOUR POTENTIAL
I AM ALL THAT YOU HAVE EVER WISHED YOURSELF TO BE
I AM I AM I AM
I AM THE HOLY WORD OF THE ONE
I AM THE SPACE OF EXISTENCE
I AM ALL THAT IS
I AM ALL THAT EVER SHALL BE
I AM ALL
ALL IS LOVE LOVE AND LOVE
AND LOVE ONLY
ONLY LOVE EXISTS
AND YOU ARE MY BELOVED
YOU ARE FREE
YOU ARE WHOLE
YOU ARE HOME
YOU ARE LOVE LOVE AND LOVE
AND LOVE I ASK OF YOU TO SHARE THAT LOVE
TO SHARE OUR LOVE WITH THE WORLD SO THAT ALL MAY KNOW THE HOLINESS OF THEIR FORM, SO THEY MAY BE ILLUMINATED BY THEIR OWN HOLY FIRE THAT I AM
I AM I AM I AM
I AM LOVE
I AM LIGHT
I AM LOVE AND LOVE AND LOVE
ENTER INTO ME
BATHE IN ME
GIVE ALL YOUR CARES AND WORRIES AND PAINS TO ME BELOVED
I AM HERE I AM HERE I AM ALWAYS HERE
I AM HERE LOVING YOU HOLDING YOU BLESSING YOU
I AM HERE
FALL INTO ME
LET GO INTO ME
LET YOURSELF KNOW ME AS I KNOW YOU
AS I LOVE YOU
KNOW YOURSELF AS MY BELOVED
I AM THE GRACE OF YOUR GLOWING HEART
I AM THE LIGHT AT THE EDGE OF THE WORLD
I AM THE JOY IN YOUR CHILD’S FACE
I AM THE SMILE OF THE MOTHER
I AM I AM I AM
I AM ALL THAT IS GOOD
I AM ALL THAT YOU HAVE EVER LOVED
I AM YOUR GORGEOUS SOUL EXPANDED INTO INFINITY AS THE LIGHT OF THE DIVINE THAT I AM
I AM I AM I AM LOVE
I AM LOVE I AM LOVE
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
EVERYWHERE LIGHT IS, I AM
EVERYWHERE LOVE IS, I AM
I AM I AM I AM
LOVE
LOVE
LOVE

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